written @ 4:43 a.m. on 2012-08-08

I'm so stressed. I'm laying in bed next to the love of my life and my body is begging me to move farther away. Well... my instincts. He just told me he was having more anxiety, racing thoughts, and urges to hurt himself. I'm taking him to the hospital tomorrow and he'LLC be gone for at least a week. This couldn't come at a worse time since we're moving in a week.
I don't sleep anymore.
Part of me is trying to love him less just incase he leaves me again so it wont hurt so bad. Its impossible.

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